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Lessons learned in 2013

My girlfriend asked me recently to write down what I learned in my past relationship. I guess this would be great therapy for  me, in knowing that despite all that I went through was not all bad. I discovered several things about myself as a woman. I discovered that innate in all of us we have a source of strength that becomes untapped when we need it the most. What I learned this year: 1. I learned to trust my gut. We are given instincts for a reason or we possess a sense of discernment, which is usually a feeling that let's us know something is going on or is not right. 2.  I learned that I could forgive. The most disgusting person, the one that broke my heart, lied to me and caused me deep pain, I could actually forgive and move on. 3. I learned that I am not superhuman. I am not everything to everybody. I have my breaking points and I learned to know my place, I cannot do, be and give everything. 4.  I learned to love. I loved without conditions, I loved purely based

No More Wasted Tears!

No More Wasted Tears Let me be honest here folks, I have cried alot since 2007 and beyond because of relationships in every area of my life. Relationships tests you beyond where you are even willing to go. I have been tested in my work relationships, community and church relationships and of course love relationships. The truth is I have been tested seemingly all at once and felt on many occasions overwhelmed and at some point buckled under the pressure of it all... and then the tears flowed. Oh, the pain of it all...there is so much pain that relationships bring. Each area brought with it, its own unique pain. I would be ashamed to write, that I was hoodwinked, bamboozled and run amok by people and their intentions of being my friend, loving me, believing that they would marry me and spend the rest of their life with me but then reality hits and for some they were only there for what I can do for them, and others just loved the sound of their own voices speaking lies and then of

Jesus Christ, the Hope of Glory!

He has kept this secret for centuries and generations past, but now at last it has pleased him to tell it to those who love him and live for him, and the riches and glory of his plan are for you Gentiles, too. And this is the secret: Christ in your hearts is your only hope of glory.  1 Colossians:  26-27 TLB Jesus, the hope of glory, these words came flooding in my spirit in the wee hours of the morning as I turned over from sleep. I awoke and started to search the scriptures. What do those words mean to me? Considering, we are in the festive holiday spirit but more importantly the Christmas season, I began to think back to the Garden of Eden, when mankind fell out of communion and fellowship with God because of sin. Adam and Eve was dismissed out of the Garden because of their sin but God always had a plan for redemption and restoration for them. Moreover, how much more did he considered those who were not directly related to His chosen race of people. He had a plan to see that we,

Red Polish

Here's the thing, I was never a fan of anything red, I just did not like the color. To me, the color was too bold, too daring, too over the top and too flirty, so I stayed away from anything red. Several years ago, I ventured into purchasing a red dress and subsequently, would Dare to Go Red! let it hang up in my closet.  One day, I dared to put it on and step out into the world. I felt unimpressive in the dress but the world told me otherwise. I had several compliments that day. However, I still was not sold on anything red. Fast Forward to 2013, and I dared to get jiggy with it ( my son would roll his eyes at this one) and dared to go red, but this time with finger nail polish. Yes, I just cringed, I never ever painted my fingers and toes red...EVER! But since, I am stepping into my new, I said to myself, well, what does it matter to have my fingers and toes painted red. So, I did that, I brushed past my fear, my dislike of the color and my own inhibitions and dared to go

Songs of Worship: You are God Alone

Morning Song of Worship You are God alone, from before time began You were on Your throne, You are God alone. And right now, in the good times and bad You are on Your throne, You are God alone.

You Must Go Through It!

The Dance of Victory Sometimes you have to encourage yourself and remind yourself  that this too shall pass. So, since I am writing again, I just wanted to share a letter I wrote to myself: Dear Victorious One, Yes, you,! You don't need to look around as if your present state of helplessness and hopelessness is going to last forever. Could I let you know that you are coming out of your lowly place and all the pain and tears you've shared have a purpose for God's greater glory at work in your life. Yes, I hear your thoughts speak loudly to you just now, thoughts of doubts and fears that are sent to paralyze you from moving forward, but you can speak back to yourself and tell yourself, I am going to make it through this episode in my life!  There is a moment when it will all be over and the screen will fade to black. The credits will roll up the screen to remind you that this episode has come to an end. There is an end coming to this period of your life...go throug

Fighting through the low moments

Life swings like a clock pendulum. Left to right, side to side, it may seem predictable but then again, as soon as you get used to one position, it quickly shifts to the next. And just as the swinging clock goes back and forth, there are those moments that you find yourself slipping in and out of happiness.  You were sure your head will be lifted high because you purposed in your heart that you would not have any more down days but then those days appear out of nowhere... The ebbs and flows of life causes you to cry out for help. You find it hard to pick yourself up and move on. People see you smiling, talking, and going through the usual motion but you are hurting inside and behind closed doors when no-one is looking you are a shell of yourself, you become a lump balled up on the cold tile floor, screaming for relief.   When does my pain get an expiration date? When will this process be over?  I cried enough tears, I reminisced enough, and had conversations with mysel

Broken (Cry of a Worshipper)

BROKEN BUT THERE'S HEALING A powerful song of worship by Shekinah Glory featuring Kim Stratton Sometimes the breaking is significant of us coming back together. As a broken bone has to be reset in  order for healing to take place,  may this song cause you to know that any period of breaking comes with lots of pain, but God is the Master of taking our broken things and fixing them back into place!

To Long For...

O God, You  are  my God; Early will I seek You; My soul thirsts for You; My flesh longs for You In a dry and thirsty land- Where there is no water. -Psalm 63:1 What a privilege we have to wake up to see a brand new day? We often take our new days for granted because they are routined for us. We rise, we go about our scores of daily tasks and go to bed and rise again to do it all over the next day. How much of our day is spend in the Presence of the One who caused the sun to rise and glory over us or the moon to shine its light to light our nights? We get up to do our own conglomerate of important things. We get out our planners and and have conversations with ourselves, on what we will do today? But we just missed a moment of seeking God in the very stillness of the day. As soon as we rise, we are bombarded with raising our family, preparing and shuffling them off to school, cooking, cleaning and all the other household stuff  that we as human beings, mothers and heads o

Be Still & Know

And the real truth begins here... God is really challenging me in this season to be still and know that He is God! I recognize and understand the God part, because there is no denying that he is God...that is an indisputable fact right there. There is no God but God...Jehovah! However, it is the being still that I struggle with. To be honest, I like to be "in the know", I like details! What woman doesn't? I have this desire to be in control and to control oftentimes than most, and sometimes that desire goes overboard but I don't mean any harm, but somehow the harm is already done because of my great zeal and passion to see things go the way, I planned! Yes, I must admit that I have my own plans and I want what I want, when I want it...but, alas, real life comes flooding in and we don't always get what we want, when we want it and how we want it. We don't get to know the what's and how's of what God is,doing in our lives and the truth is...he