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Unspoken Words...I Broke Down Today!!!


So how's this for a reel...real talk, real truth and real emotions...

I Broke Down Today!!!

Some would say, I had a meltdown while others would say I lost total control of my emotions.
I would have been deemed emotional and yet I was unashamed...

I baled, I balled, I cried out in desperation because of hurt, pain, mishandling and misinformation.
You see days before I was walking tall, proud that I was keeping it all together.

For what though, for a world that is growing colder and callous every day. Now has me wondering, do people truly care about people.

The world today is not the world that I dreamt about...a world of peace, love, unity, equality, equity and family togetherness...just the sound of it seems farfetched now.

But yet I still have a dream... that one day tings gonna get better...like the good Bishop says.

I broke down today because family is not the same anymore, so much  division, so much strife, no unity and I am asking where is the love that once was had.

I broke down today because I felt someone's pain. People are hurting, they are losing loved ones, they are praying for miracles, desperate for answers and needing change.

I broke down today because I don't want to be the strong one...I just want to be a real one...just me...I'm just Kei!

I broke down today but I got glammed up because I'm showing face. No one would have believed moments ago I was screaming into a pillow curled up on the ground. Just praying to God to come, come see about me, come help me because I don't know what  to say or how to pray.

Yes, I broke down today and released all that I was carrying inside of me...what was bottled up is now free...I  whispered a prayer that my hope would not be eroded because of my present state.

I broke down today... but I know that weeping only lasts for a night and joy comes in the morning.

I broke down today but I got back up and raised up my head and gave God thanks because he sees me...El Roi sees me and knows my name.

It is enough that God is in control.

Unveiled to Be Transformed


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