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Quarantine Chronicles-The Struggle is Real!

This is my confession....I am tired of being locked away...it has been about  a month and counting (I definitely lost count). At first, I breezed through the first few weeks like a champ. However, lately, I am fatigued, physically and mentally tired and longing for social connections, nature connections and a sense of my life...where I have a freedom to roam and do what I please within the confines of the law.
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I am just overwhelmed at this moment, I am not depressed or sad but just  feeling  withdrawn and impatient.

Being single and living alone....I do enjoy the quiet moments, the solitude and peace with not having to be bombarded with common family foot traffic in a multiple family living space. I love my space but I crave connection more than ever

So, this week it is hitting me hard and I am drained.

I have also been keeping busy working from home and  developing content for my job.  I am also working as a technical assistant and producer for my church virtual programs since the pandemic has begun. I have stretched my skills and expanded them feeling  much accomplished and that too has become draining and demanding.

I have cooked and cooked and  I am tired of that too...I miss eating out,  ordering take out and getting my mother's  familiar calls to come collect my dinner plate.

I especially miss my specialty coffee....I am a Starbucks aficionado and a regular patron,  in fact I can apply for permanent resident at my local Starbucks. Confession: I close out Starbucks most of the time, and can boast that it is definitely my second office.

Hence, this is not a normal blog post but just my quarantine ramblings...

I have read, watched, blogged, created video content, surfed the net and even signed up for Tinder..all because of this lock down.. The stress of the lock down has overcome me.

Yes, I am on Tinder and no,  I did not respond to the likes or messages. .I chalked it up to being bored...as I am not looking for love currently in this city  The reality is, this is what a lock down would do. It would have you create an online dating profile and you start swiping and getting messages...well I did it with e-harmony and that other dating site awhile back...so Tinder is  new for me and it is all about swiping left and right. Now, I am tired of swiping and accidentally liking people's pics...I have a lot to learn with this Tinder thing...nope, I call it quits!

Well, you see the struggle is  definitely real,

 I think boredom has finally struck and has me just being idle and reckless....

I am struggling with the loneliness and not having a real deep human connection, and it is taking a toll on me and I desperately just want my life back,  I want my freedom...the ability to travel, roam and be me, the me that I know I can be...and move forward...

Well, my ramblings have come to end because it is late and I need to sign off this blog and Tinder apparently....no joke....I swiped and liked without meaning too....definitely not like Facebook or Twitter...so I have to stick with what I know...lol!

If I can offer one piece advice to anyone while on lock down....create your own sense of normal as much as you can....do what it takes to connect with family and friends especially if you are single and alone like me...if you are not....find a quiet space to retreat.... find your sense of normal and stay off Tinder.

Signing off...

Keisha
#QuarantineChronicles

Unveiled to Be Transformed

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  1. UnknownApril 16, 2020 at 2:11 PM

    This was sad and funny all at the same time. Especially the Tinder part! And in another note... you now turn into a chef...ijs 😌

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