From Glory to Glory

I am moving steadfastly each day trying to find some sense of normalcy.  My life is spiraling...not where I am losing control but where I  have clearly lost a sense of my direction and purpose. Things are changing rapidly that I lost momentum, and find myself at the starting lineup. Why? I failed again, plain and simple, don't know how much times I have experience failure processing. I have to admit defeat and failure to myself as I embark on a reality check up. I admit these words to myself, saying "Sister Girl, you done messed up.  You did not learn the lessons that you ought and you did not choose the better way. Therefore,  you have allowed pride, fear and your opinion to push you deeper away from the ultimate plans and purpose of God." Yes, I go through the processing and the moments of inflection and reflection. Despite, my  failures, I live to correct them and am thankful that God graced me yet again. My journey is to discover not the Me I want but the Me

Everyone has a secret or two to hide. No-one wants to see the full story of their lives paraded on  screens for the world to see...raw and uncensored. Every scene that we would want to be deleted captured for the audience view. The world has become ever more judgmental with the emergence of social media and the platforms which allow you to speak and say every and anything not considering the consequences or the results of your words and or actions. It is even a popular place to become someone you are not. A place where you can pretend to be a perfect image of humanity. However, your image is a figment of imagination..No one is perfect. Some of us have a  petrid, dirty past that we have managed to navigate and clean ourselves up so good that we don't look like what we have been through.  If it wasn't for the grace of God, we would have still been Lady Tramp, Gang Banger, Drug Runner , Murderer, Slanderer, Rapist and Cheater. Some of us have managed to escape the world

Many times we find ourselves in situations where we know better not to get involved. These unhealthy relationships or connections that we seemingly attract, in which we become caught up in the newness, the glamour, and the whirlwind of emotions and find ourselves hopelessly a prisoner of love. These relationships or connections sole purpose is to sidetrack or destroy you. I often tell myself, look, listen and learn...and pay attention as life is always trying to teach us something. I have learned over the years how we shape our realities and future by our choices and decisions.  We engage in conversations, meetings, contracts and relationships that are  all wrong for us. What I have not understand in my years on this earth is why? Why, when we know that if we venture in uncharted territory,  with imminent signs of danger,  we still move forward. We become the cause of our own demise. Yet over and over, we blame others for our misfortunes but we fail to blame ourselves. I oft